Always on His Mind

Lord, I will seek You

On my bed, think upon You

In the day I'll dream of You

You're always on my mind

With my whole heart I'll love You

With my mind and my strength, too

Waste my life searching for You

You're always on my mind

And though I'm poor and needy 

The Lord thinks upon me

Though His name is Holy

I'm always on His mind

Though I'm weak and lowly

The Lord dreams about me

Though He's high and lofty

I'm always on His mind

For I'm in love with God

And God's in love with me

How far will You let me go

How abandoned will You let me be

I'm in love with God and God's in love with me

This is who I am and this is who I'll be 

and that settles it…completely.

--Misty Edwards, One Thing Live CD, "Always on His Mind"

This morning I've been listening to Misty Edwards and this song just got to me. It's the thought that there's not a moment we are out of His mind. 'Out of sight, out of mind' is completely foreign to Him. He is omniscient. Omnipresent. He watches us day and night, pursuing us with loving tenacity. He doesn't let go or give up. He doesn't write us off. He loves completely, all the time.  You cannot separate yourself from His love. He can't turn His love off.  It's just Who He is. He is Love. 

Though I'm poor and needy …  The Lord thinks upon me … Though His name is Holy … I'm always on His mind

The song reminds me how BIG and how GREAT God is.  Humility comes to me straight away.  A reverence that settles me into such peace and such security because I know how kind He is in His greatness.  He doesn't lord His strength over us.  It's a strength that brings peace.  He is the Creator and I'm what He's made.  There's something very settling to me in that.  I feel able to rest in that place of knowing He's good and He's got me in His grip.  I don't have to have all the answers or understand all things.  Here in this place, I am able to see the love and humility of Christ…that He took on flesh and became like us.  No greater love…

With my whole heart I'll love You … With my mind and my strength, too … Waste my life searching for You … 

The song reminds me of the scriptures, "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."  (Jer 29:13) And, "Yes, let none who trust and wait hopefully and look for You be put to shame or be disappointed…" (Psalm 25:3)  We are encouraged to seek Him and to look for Him, and the beauty is the promise that He will be found.  He wants to be with us.  He wants to speak with us. He wants to share His heart with us.  He doesn't want a heart divided, but a whole heart that is completely His.  Then He can truly pour into us by His Spirit and we can live from a place of connectivity. We can live from a place of peace because we are where we are supposed to be in our heart - with Him.  It's not so much where we go or what we do or what we have, so long as we are connected heart-to-heart with Him, all our senses awakened to Him.

I believe everyone on planet earth has experienced heartbreak in some form or fashion. Most likely out of relational experience. Rejection, betrayal, loss, abuse...all contributors to a broken heart. I just don't know that a person can make it through life on earth without experiencing a broken heart. You lost your dad.  You lost a pet. A friend ditched you for another. Someone said they didn't love you anymore. At some point something has pierced our hearts and it felt like it split right down the middle.

What did you do with your broken heart? Often we are very young when the wound occurs and we may not have a person that comes alongside of us to show us the way to healing. Many didn't grow up in a home where forgiveness was taught or practiced. Many didn't know Jesus, which makes it really hard to find healing for our broken hearts.  Thus it becomes very difficult to believe that God is always thinking about us, always has us on his mind. The fact that we are always on His mind is no less true. We just don't believe it as truth. Our experiences have told us different. Our truth is not God's truth. We make exceptions or exclusions or excuses for why this can't possibly be true. God loves us all the time, no matter what. But our mind tends to go down the road of 'but...' or 'except when…' or 'what about…'   

Somehow we have to come to a place where we reject our unbelief. That's really what keeps us from the truth, isn't it? Unbelief that He could be that good, that loving, that full of mercy and grace, that faithful.  Jesus didn't die on the cross for us so that we could walk around in disbelief, questioning our place in Him.  We HAVE been adopted into His family. He IS full of love for us.  We ARE forgiven and set free.  We so often stand in our jail believing we're bound, but really all it takes is to walk out of that jail. Disengage from the lies and cleave to Faithful & True.  The door has been ripped open by Christ.  Walk forth into the Light of His presence and BELIEVE in His goodness.  Believe in His love.  Believe He's bigger than our past experiences or present circumstances.  Believe His death and resurrection means freedom for us.  It's a choice we need to make.  Psalm 32:8 says, "I the Lord will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with My eye upon you."  We are never out of His sight.  We are always on His mind. Believe it!

'I'm in love with God and God's in love with me.  This is who I am and this is who I'll be and that settles it.  Completely.'

Kerri

2/26/14