We are filled with anticipation, yet at times experience moments of doubt, fear, and sadness. It's hard to leave our community of 15+ years. It's not so much the actual packing up that's hard, but what we leave in the rearview mirror. It's our friends, our church, our school - our people. This is where I found Jesus and grew up in the Lord. It's the physical place we found so much spiritual and relational healing. Words cannot convey how much our church body has meant to us. It feels like we are leaving the nest, which is not altogether comfortable.
Still, we know this is what the Lord wants us to do. Comfortable or not, we are being obedient to Him. I am so grateful for the voices of friends and family that remind us God is with us, He has good things in store for us, and will provide for our every need. I'm thankful that the Spirit is also reminding me that we are moving in Him.
That feels right - moving in Him. All of this is so much bigger than we can see. We are having to exercise our faith and adjust our eyes to try to see through His. It hasn't been easy, but at the same time it's easy. Sounds ridiculous, right? But have you ever known that you were doing the right thing and felt such comfort in that - yet at the same time, felt it was still the hardest thing to do?
When I was reading yesterday about the arrival of the Savior on Christmas, I realized how many times God moved Mary and Joseph from place to place in preparation and protection of the Babe they carried. They traveled from home to Bethlehem, on to Jerusalem, back to Bethlehem, off to Egypt, Judea and finally home to Nazareth. I'm sure that wasn't comfortable. I'm sure it was a little frightening at times, considering all the circumstances. Yet they moved with God each time He asked, and the Lord was with them. He directed their steps and gave purpose to each one.
We are all learning to trust God at a deeper level. The beauty of the journey is knowing that we are moving in Him. That is where I find my peace. That is where I find my joy.